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June 12th, 2008 (09:23 am)

I had a nightmare last night.
Ma'am had died.  It was some sort of accident, but...she'd died and in my dream, I couldn't go on.  I woke up when my dream-self committed suicide.


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June 11th, 2008 (08:04 pm)

Missed yesterday, it's the -making- a habit that's hard.  Mn, so.  Tomorrow I have a job interview at the swimming pool.  A job's a job, right?  *hopeful*
We walked Molly thisevening.  Jesus, this place is beautiful.  Just a bit of walking, and I swear I found the highest place for miles.  I could see EVERYWHERE.
We also saw horses, and sheep.  SHEEP!  They're so cute!
Mn, I'm being lazy with my entry, cause I'm going to bed soon.  Yay for job interview.  (Yeah right...)

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RP'ers on the F'list...

June 11th, 2008 (12:54 pm)

Is there a Rude out and about on my F'list?
I have been struck by a sudden craving for Rude/Elena.
One of my dirty secrets, yes...

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December 8th, 2007 (06:51 pm)
current song: Cannon Rock (JerryC)

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Fiction Challenge for the Flist

November 29th, 2007 (10:26 pm)

current mood: amused

Okay, everybody! :D I have a fiction challenge for all of you.
Write a bit of fiction, however long or short you'd like. The topic is thus--a character has a job (or second job) that is appropriate for their character, but...somewhat of a WTF. Post it in your LJ along with this challenge as well.

:D I have a few others I'd like to tag...I won't embarrass anyone on the flist by calling out usernames, so I'll just name off characters.
  • Sephiroth
  • Willy Wonka
  • Cid or Yazoo
  • Kadaj or L

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Character Meme

November 9th, 2007 (10:11 pm)
current song: I believe

Leave a list of fictional characters in your journal that you would love to get a message from. It is your friend-list's mission, should they choose to accept it, to write you an in-character "letter" from a character on that list. Then they post their own list in their journal and the process continues!

  1. Sephiroth (Of course!)
  2. Severus Snape
  3. Draco Malfoy
  4. House (I don't know him, but everybody's talking about him, so sure.)
  5. V (V for Vendetta)
  6. L (Death Note)
  7. Light (Death Note)
  8. Anyone else any of the flist thinks I need to hear from!

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Yes, I HAVE gone in on my lunchbreak to do this....

October 22nd, 2007 (12:59 am)
current song: 03 - Word On A Wing

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Characters for the Webcomic!

October 21st, 2007 (07:13 pm)
current song: Peter Gabriel - Sledgehammer

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My life one step ahead of the short bus...

October 10th, 2007 (10:37 pm)

You know, my roommate spoils me.
She reads up on psychology books and stuff like that, just for fun.  And she adores me.
I'm her own private case study.
And it's cool, she puts up with my weirdness.  We call it my being 'special'.  And I bet you guys thought that was just an old, tacky joke, telling the short bus kids that we're special?
I didn't actually ride on the short bus...but I was close.
I'm smart--I'm not =learning= disordered.  But I -am- mentally disordered.  I went to the 'normal' classes...most of the time.  But when people weren't looking, or people wouldn't notice, I was pulled out to meet with the teacher for the 'special' students.
But I thought it was something fun, something different, and I never realized until much later, until I was graduating high school....walking across that stage, and realizing...everything was a setup.  Carefully guided and carefully orchestrated, I'd been on the short bus the whole time...but nobody'd told me.
I suppose I was lucky...I got to go to normal classes and make normal friends, and I didn't have to have a custodian holding my hand and changing a diaper for me.
But....as often as I have severe issues with normals, as often as they've shouted at me that I belonged on the short bus, as often as they've told me I'm just fucked up...
I wish somebody'd told me earlier that I was one of the short bus kids.  I wish I'd known earlier why the normals have such a bad reaction to me.
I always knew it was because I was special, but....that's why it hurts so much to tell us that we're special...because even in jest...we don't get it.  We can smile and go, 'Yeah, I'm special!' and think it's a good thing.
I wish somebody had told me before that I was one of the broken castoffs of society.  I would've stopped trying to fit in with the normals, and made friends with the rest of the short bus kids.  It would've made my entire life so much easier.

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Oooh, shiny!

October 8th, 2007 (01:40 am)
current song: Desert - Write Once

Shiny shiny!  We have two new playthings with the comic...that seems to be my journal's sole purpose for existence...  ^^;;

First, we have two new recurring characters!  Please welcome Shannon and Anna, and their store, Willow Grove.  Real people, real place, boat load of inspiration.  They're a local Pagan/Wiccan store, and everyone in the area needs to go!!!
The second shiny is...scenes!  They're not great, in fact they're really pretty bad, but...they're scenes!  There's a deli counter, and kinda sorta the Willow Grove store!

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October 3rd, 2007 (01:01 am)
current song: Mitsuru Kuramoto - soredewa minasan sayonara

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I tried to wait...but I couldn't. T_T

October 1st, 2007 (10:58 pm)
current song: Godsmack - [Acoustic] Asleep

I tried to wait, really I did.  But...it's October first, and...and...and...I WANNA OPEN THEM!!!  T_T

So, anyways...mother's taking notes as I open the rest of my gifts from Rebby.

She is picking up the package that is wrapped in purple.  the dog has sniffed it and approved.  It is a peeg!  She likes it very much but she needs new batteries.  Fortunately, Shanna has extra.  It walks!  Its snout wiggles.  It scared the dog.

here is a keychain with a bearl and a bell.  Her work keys are on it now.  There  is a star with something in German.  She says she cannot read the directions  She is wearing something on her head.  It is probably wrapping paper.  She is playing with the peeg.

Big orange squishy package.  Does not rattle.  It says "i no longer recall what this is.  Sorry."  She feels fur.  It is a bear with a photo.  It is a Rebby baby photo.

Rectangular package, not squishy.  To keep the air cool and sweet is the inscription.  Yes, CHOCOLATE insence sticks. And a sandlewood fan! Wow.

Big pink package.  May he bring you sweet dreams of me.  May English cello tape be damned!  It is an oliphant with wire in his ears but if you expect me to vote Republican you don't know my as well as you might!

Mn, last time I have my mommy play secretary for me.  It got kinda incoherent towards the end.
I love everything, I'm burning the chocolate incense, and I'm not letting go of the oliphaunt.  :D

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Comic update!

September 28th, 2007 (09:31 am)
current song: Nightwish - Angels Fall First

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September 20th, 2007 (09:43 am)
current song: Peter Gabriel - Sky Blue

Introducing a new little webcomic, by me, brought to you by the fact that Katie has too much spare time.  Dolls and graphics are from makers at:  Elouai, PixelBee, and Dollzbliss.  Putting it all together, and humorous dialogue are by me.  :D

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September 14th, 2007 (11:50 pm)
current song: Peter Gabriel - Ngankarrparni (Sky Blue) (Reprise)

I am the scum of the earth.
I am worse than dirt.
My life is so...comfortable.  I wake up in the morning, I do the same thing all day...
I take that which is good to be for granted.
Including the light of my life, my angel, my sweetheart, my Rebby.
Rebby, I adore you.  I love you so much, sometimes I think my heart will burst.  You're the only thing on my mind anymore.  I talk about you constantly, I think of you always.
And when you need something of me...I fail.
The one thing you've asked me for, the one thing I need to get for you, and I've put it off and put it off.
I can swear that it's coming, that I'm getting it, I can promise till we're both old and grey...
I don't blame you if you don't believe me anymore.
The one thing you've asked of me, and I haven't delivered.
I'm such a fair-weather girlfriend, such a worthless being.
I've made you upset, made you wait...
I am the scum of the earth.

I suppose some might say that I'm being a drama queen, saying all that for effect.
Who knows, maybe that's why my subconcious compels me to think such things.
But...I truly believe them.
My Rebby, my angel...has only asked me for one thing.  The one thing I haven't been able to give, haven't given, haven't taken the time.
And it's finally blown up in my face...finally reached the head that she can't cope with any more.
I keep wondering...if I say my penance properly, if I make my wrongs right...will it make things better?
Will it take away the hurt I feel from her, even though she's thousands of miles away?
Even if I get the passport now, at this late date...
It doesn't change that I'm not trustworthy, that I'm a lazy piece of shit.
Nothing will change that...not now, when I've proven it to be true.
I can't...
There's nothing...

Rebby, forgive me.  Please forgive me.  I know my promises mean nothing anymore...I don't blame you...I shouldn't even trust myself, but...
Please, if I promise again...please forgive me.
I'll try again.
I'll work harder.
Don't leave me.
I love you.
Always, forever, and two days.
Always those two extra days.

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September 12th, 2007 (11:51 pm)
current song: Peter Gabriel - Ngankarrparni (Sky Blue) (Reprise)

Birdie, my guinea pig, died some time while I was at work today.
I didn't notice till nearly midnight.
Shame on me.
She's dead.
She's dead.
Every pet I've had has died.
Well before it should have.
I don't think I'll get another.  

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August 30th, 2007 (02:12 am)

current mood: ecstatic
current song: 01 - Fantastic Voyage


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August 22nd, 2007 (01:35 pm)
current song: 08 - Boys Keep Swinging

→ Pick your birth month.
→ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
→ Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.
→ Tag 5 people from your friends list.

Hm, I guess I tag...

alissa_lila burningpumpkins gentleman_lech kaffiinee  and herboundparadox

Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

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July 29th, 2007 (08:14 pm)
current song: Nobuo Uematsu - The Wedding

I'm 50% LiveJournal!

Middle of the road.
Probably the healthiest place to be.

The LiveJournal Quiz

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I'm a Night Sky.

You've seen your share of sunrises; the difference with you is that they usually arrive before you've gone to bed. The most productive and active hours of the night are the ones where no one else is up; no distractions, no commotion. The peace of the night appeals to you, and like the stars of the night sky, you won't disappear until the sun drives you away.

What sky are you?

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Critics would give my life a B-!

Wow, you're a busy bee, aren't you? You've had your share of excitement in life, what with the occasional car chase and maybe a time bomb or two. Or maybe you're the cornerstone of a dozen love triangles, you dog you. And one things for sure, you've avoided sports-playing animals like the plague, and for that I must commend you. As always, there's room for even more excitement in your life. Try adding a few more movie cliches to your daily routine. Introduce yourself with your last name first. Think deeply while riding on the subway, just in time for a wise old woman to tell you the exact thing you need to hear at the exact moment. And don't forget to break out into song at the slightest provocation; that'll impress the critics greatly.

What rating would movie critics give your life?

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I'm Jaina Solo!

You're the temperamental, force-sensitive daughter of Han and Leia Solo, Jaina Solo! For more information, click here.

What Star Wars heroine are you?

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I'm Red XIII!

Job: Research Specimen
Age: 48
Weapon: Headdress
Birthplace: Cosmo Canyon
Description: Just like his name says, he is an animal with fire-red fur. But under this fierce exterior is an intelligence surpassing that of any human's. His sharp claws and fangs make him good at close-range fighting, but other than that, not much else is known about him. It's not even certain "Red XIII" is his real name. A real enigma.

Which Final Fantasy 7 character are you?

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My life is rated PG!

Your life is rated PG!

What is your life rated? (TV Scale)

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I'm Sailor Mercury!

Every group needs a nerd, and you're more than happy to stand along side with your nose in a book. Strategy is your key to success; the moment your foe has forgotten the quiet girl standing in the corner, you pop up to provide a strategical advantage at exactly the right moment. (Image credit to AnimeCutie.com)

Which Sailor Moon Inner Scout are you?

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I'm Samwise Gamgee!

Cynical and clumsy, but loyal and brave, you're Samwise Gamgee!

"I can't carry it for you, but I can carry you and it as well. So up you get! Come on, Mr. Frodo dear! Sam will give you a ride. Just tell him where to go, and he'll go."

Which hobbit in the fellowship of the Ring are you?

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I'm a 2x2 Lego Piece!

Small and sturdy, you're a 2x2 Lego piece!

What Lego piece are you?

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I must be racist...

July 26th, 2007 (11:56 pm)

current mood: angry
current song: Kate Bush - The Red Shoes

If the USA passes a law that denies <insertsomethingarbitraryhere> to, quote, 'anyone incapable of proving their citizenship', end quote....

How does that single out the Latino community???
Wouldn't that mean that all of the Latinos that are here legally would be unaffected, and all of the black/white/yellow/brown/pink/purple/polka-dotted people who are here illegally would be cut out of the <arbitrarysomethingpreviouslymentionedhere> as well??????

Oh, wait, that means that I'm not jumping on their entitlement/victim-complex bandwagon, and therefore I'm racist.
Gee, why didn't somebody tell me I was a white supremacist earlier?

Prompt Of This Rant